A Commonplace Book

If I understand you correctly, and I'm afraid I do, then you're thinking about an evolving god who develops through time and grows, mounting higher and higher levels of power toward the awareness of that power's impotence? This God of yours is a being who has entered godhood like entering a blind alley, and when he comprehends this, he yields to despair. Fine, but surely a despairing God is a human being, my friend? You're thinking about human beings...